Elin’s blog

Watched the first semi final of Melodifestivalen with my family this evening. To sum it up most of the songs were decent tonight, but of all the 8 songs I think I only liked 2 of them. My favourite tonight (and the one that got the most votes) was Keep On Walking – Salem Al Fakir. If you’re curious of the song just youtube/google it, if you’re lucky you’ll find it. No point linking cause SVT regularly removes the Melodifestivalen 2010 songs for stupid reasons, and it will be like that until the Final is over.

Yesterday I finally completed Diablo 2, yay. The final fight against Diablo himself was pretty epic, felt like it took ages to kill him. Now I’m looking forward to Diablo 3, it looks quite awesome.

Mood: Lonely
Games: Diablo 2, Osu, PW3
Listening to: Keep On Walking – Salem Al Fakir
Watching: Lucky Star

Saw a hilarious vid a couple days ago on Crunchyroll.com. Some asian people should never rap in English… especially not this guy:

Today I met my dietitian at the hospital. I gotta meet her at least once a year to get extra money for my Coeliac (not sure what “bidrag” is called in English but im too lazy to check it up). It’s not much money but, still better than nothing at all. My special food costs a lot more compared to the normal food… I dunno why I have to get there once a year just to make her confirm that I still have Coeliac, even my dietitian think its stupid and unnecessary and wants the system to be changed… Considering Coeliac is a chronic disease its a really really stupid system, its not like im gonna lose it any time soon. It could have been less frequent like every 5-10th year or until a good cure have been released. Ah well.

Dinner: Quinoa, avocado and chicken
Mood: Happy + Bored
Games: Osu, Torchlight, PW3
Listening to: Dad playing Dr. Mario with the song Fever (NES), and Don’t stop me now – Queen

So it’s finally 2010 heh. Hopefully it’ll be better than last year.

My christmas last year was quite nice. My twin came home from London, even though we dont get along sometimes its nice to see her home. Santa didnt visit us this year, cause no one in the family could bother to dress up as him lol. Well actually he did come over more or less, when we were eating dinner he startled us by knocking on the window and waving at us lol, it was probably just a silly neighbour but it was fun.
I bought a chocolate bottle to mom. For Ailure i bought an expensive game magazine called RETRO, it was a Super Nintendo special and also bought him chocolate. My twinsis got chocolate too, a scarf and a bodylotion. I bought dad a Beatles brooch (Sgt. Peppers Lonely Heart Club Band) cause hes a huge Beatles fan. This year i got a Table easel (loved it), clothes, some movies, some games (Ben There Dan That! + Time Gentlemen Please, Machinarium + Samorost 2), Homer poster and money.

Some days of the winter holiday me and sis played some Final Fantasy Chrystal Chronicles (gamecube) together. She’ve always liked that game and it’s one of the few games we’ve completely finished together, we can cooperate very well. The game is good, the more who plays the merrier. The only thing that might be bad with that game is its slow, repetive and quite boring to play alone… And if you play it with 3-4 people, someone always tends to get tired of it quickly and then everyone gotta stop playing.

Bought myself two other games this year, The Longest Journey and Torchlight.
The Longest Journey is an awesome adventure clicking game, Belnoroth recommended me it and im glad he did. Torchlight is similar to Diablo in gameplay so I think people who like that game will like Torchlight too, but it lacks multiplayer. I’ll probably buy Diablo3 when it comes out.

Listening to: Marisa stole the precious thing – IOSYS
Playing: Osu!, Phoenix Wright 3

This night I found out that one of the girls I know is suffering from anorexia, its so serious that she’s way too weak to take care of herself now. It made me very upset, how can someone do so to their own body? Why are so many people so obsessed about the looks, why cant we be fine as we are already?
Sadly i’m especially harsh about my own looks, you could say my worst enemy is myself. But I still dont care as much for how others look, as long as theyre nice and healthy (if they look good it’s a bonus of course). Still, I’d dislike to have an unhealthy bony boyfriend cause the hugs would suck and i’d constantly be worried about him. Being fat is bad too of course (duh) but at least i can stand on my own two legs and take care of myself, for now. I’m not a living bowlingball yet. Of course, starving myself have always been tempting but I know its the worst way to lose weight and I dont wanna get any eating disorder like Anorexia or Bulimia nervosa. :/
Meh, at least I managed to cheer this girl up a bit.. she was crying when she first spoke to me. I still wish I could help her more than that. Usually i suck at comforting people and make them feel better. Over Internet its easier… I guess…

Today my sis is coming home from London. She will stay until Sunday next week. She wanna see the movie Up with me, I heard its great. We will see if I can get my brother to join too, seems like he wanna see it as well.
Sunday this week is Fathers Day (at least in Sweden). We’ll see what he gets. Considering he’s a huge Beatles fan I wanted to give him the Beatles game. But i think that i might have to wait with it until Christmas, if its still available then and if I can afford it.

Listening to: Töntarna – Kent
Playing: Fire Emblem, Tales of Symphonia
Mood: Upset, Compassionated

Quite a lot have been going on since i last posted on this blog. I moved out from Svalöv and Fridhem with quite good grades, a sum grade of 3.  Instead of several grades from every subject we just get one on a scale from 1-4 based on how good we are, I think i could translate it to something like this;
1: Less good capacity for study
2: Good capacity for study
3: Very good capacity for study
4: Excellent capacity for study
3 was my goal from the start so i’m very happy. I prefer to not aim too high than I think I’m capable of or else i’d get disappointed. Considering my average grade from upper secondary was VG, a 3 suits me well.

To sum my 2 year in Fridhem up… I think i preferred the 2nd year even though the school system turned out worse and lots of people quit. I loved both of the years, but art as my main subject took most of the cake. Obviously its more fun to paint a huge painting and show it in an exhibition than write a 20 page essay in University Preperation class. Both of the main classes i had were nice, but less in University prep. class lived in Svalöv which I guess made it feel lonely sometimes. Besides I had a feeling my first roommate disliked me. 2nd year almost everyone lived in Svalöv which was lovely, we often had breakfast, lunch and coffee break together. If i decided to stay longer in the classroom to finish a painting there was almost always some classmates there, when my laptop broke I spent more evenings there cause I had nothing better to do and I loved it. I dont think many knows that i’ve been drawing and painting less lately cause i miss that kind of company. I think I will get over it pretty soon.

Nowadays if i’ve spent several hours with a drawing and I get no feedback or comment from that person I intended to draw it to I automatically think that i’ve failed. Rather constructive critique than nothing at all. If it sucks, I’d like to know why so that i can learn from it and do it different next time.

Lately I’ve been looking for a job, but as things looks now its extremely hard to get one still. My Asperger doesn’t help it, cause of that handicap the employment service are trying to find out if im capable of a job or not. Even if i turn out to be I think people would rather employ someone “normal”, its depressing. What if I can never get a normal job.

Mood: Decent
Music: Prayer for the Weekend – The Ark
Games: Pikmin 2, Fire Emblem: Sacred stones

Realised I havent updated for ages. My excuse is that life is not interesting enough for the moment… Well about 3 weeks ago more than half of the schools “profil” classes (Högskoleförberedande, Internationella, Måleri, Foto, Cross Media Design, Hälsa och Ledarskap) were in Berlin, heard they really enjoyed the trip. I didn’t feel like joining them, I’m not really close to anyone in my class and the night activities they were planning to do isnt my thing. Instead I was allowed to stay home that week, which was nice of course. I was supposed to paint stuff but ended up doing nothing… hehe.

5th June will be my last day here. Just thinking of how little time is left… makes me worried. Cause I have no clue what to do after I quit. Well, my plan is to take a break a half year and just paint stuff or sign up for night courses or finally try to get my driving license. And perhaps next year sign into University, possibly art or another subject i like like Psychology. My mom tells me that I should become an artist, but is that really what I want after all? The expressionism painting I made god lots of good critics from people, which made me really happy. Pia said something like: “Make 10 paintings like that one and you’ll sell them easily”.

Last thursday we had our last kroki ever, but it was disappointing cause it didn’t go that well. The male model we had was boring… too perfect perhaps I dunno. And I swear he changed arm pose once in the middle of a 10 min drawing session, which ruined my painting completely (or I hadnt payed enough attention to the pose). Painting boys clearly isnt my thing, I want curves. But out of all the crappy paintings there was at least 2 that turned out pretty good.

Mood: Worried

I’m kinda excited for the classphoto we took today, we did it in the style of Leonardo da Vincis The last meal. Instead of plates we used art material and coffee-cups randomly spread out on the table. Hopefully it turned out great, if not… at least we had fun posing it. I was the third man starting from the left side. I bet it looks hilarious. x3 It’s kinda a shame that not everyone showed up though. 3:

Mood: Happy, Stressed
Music: Eden – Sarah Brightman
Game: Chrono Trigger

Last week my dad got into a car accident, he hit a roe deer while driving to his job. The cars front is ruined but fortunately the deer died immediately and dad survived. Parents travelling to London tomorrow, hopefully they’ll come back in one piece. :/

I signed up to the Högskoleprovet (University test) 28th march, I’ve planned to do it for 2 years but I kept forgetting about it. I heard its a very long test and it will last almost all day, think it was 8 am – 5 pm which means my brain will be so dead when im finished. It’s time based and theyre extremely strict about it so there will be lots of stress. >.< But if im signing up for University within a few years it’ll be totally worth it, people who’ve done the test and got decent grades are more likely to get in. 17th March I’ll practice the test at school. It’ll last from 9 am to 3 pm I think. I think the word comprehension part will be the hardest (last year I practiced on an old word comprehension test), or perhaps the math logic test.

Mood: Worried
Playing: Chrono Trigger – DS
Music: Jag ljuger så bra – Linda Bengtzing

Life is kinda shit for the moment, but im still trying to hang on. I lost my backpack monday last week, i got a phonecall on thursday same week that its found and that i can fetch it at the station. I went to the lost and found at the station but they said they still had no bag, which surprised me so now I pretty much have no idea where to find it. Its confusing and im too confused to remember the phonecall for the moment. If Knutpunkten doesnt have it and Malmö doesnt have it and the Policestation in Helsingborg doesnt have it, where is it? :S

Today in class we held a presentation (is there any more fitting english word for “redovisa”? >>) of how we’ve progressed with the 3D project. Theme was Porn, Power and Life. A girl in my class is demonstrating 5 Different ways on how to kill a Barbie, quite amusing how she kills the beauty ideal. Another girl made a 14 weeks after sculpture, which mostly symbolise the consequence after unprotected sex. Another girl is decorating a dollhouse, its very symbolistic and better than what it sounds like. A guy played God and its pretty much based on Frankenstein, on how something you put to life can scare you. He placed the creation in a dark creepy room, she’s called Rene. Another girl is making a forest which symbolises life. My roommate made some odd looking figures and legs sticking out from a plastic bag filled with ballons, both of them symbolising male discrimination (pfffft x3). A girl placed a dice on the table with the question: Who decides over your life? Sad thing is not everyone in our class took the project seriously, some didnt do anything at all or made it too easy for them like the dice. I made a golden fat bigwig going out with a weak woman on a leash, it symbolises several stuff for me, but I wont put any description cause I like when people think themself and (!) give constructive feedback, its especially important if I’ve spent weeks with it. For the moment I named it Master & Servant after a Depeche Mode song, I’m bad with names so I cant think of anything better. I’m extremely sick of my 3D project, but fortunately its almost finished. :/
Next project is oil painting, never used “real” oil so I wonder how that will be. The special oil colour we used before took 3+ days. It takes 1+ weeks for normail oil it to dry, if really thick it might take +1 month. Perhaps I should brainstorm some new ideas over the Sport holiday next week.

Mood: Bored -> tired
Music: Voyamos Compañeros – Marquess
Playing: Fire Emblem